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You're strangling my heart, and my world is turning
blue.
I hate myself for getting so completely trapped in you.
You're ripping out the words I hold so close to me...
struggling
to push you off, so wrapped up I can't breathe.
It's on my mind. It's in my head; I can still remember your taste.
My bitter blood is in my mouth, my eaten words
erased.
Lying silent in your arms but I can hear my scream.
Explain how I should handle this; I run, though you don't
see.
God I hate the way you do exactly what I need.
I cannot fall this down anymore, into nothingness, into defeat.
Please
go on, get out of my head; no, I won't give in this time.
There's nothing here you truly need, you just destroy what I
call "mine."
Hold me and hurt me, and prove that I was right:
I'll finally die, defeated in your path, another victim in your
arms tonight...
I'm a Love Suicide.
The sanity I need is buried deep inside.
Filled with hate and greed,
a part of me has died.
I request a chance to start my life again.
Just a second glance;
a time for me to win.
Don't talk that way to me: just leave me here to cry.
My lifes been cold and long,
dying all the while.
You don't reach out to me even though I beg for help.
You refuse to see;
you can't look beyond yourself.
--In this dungeon--
I am what I am,
starting today
all of my "nothingness" fades
into the ideal, the false, and the brief.
How long before
I'm pulled underneath?
I want you to know me;
I wish you would try
but my barriers are built up inside...
I'm dead and down.
Inside my head
there are reasons and sounds,
but none that can make this allowed.
Not here
and not now.
Don't run from me:
Stay, please,
one more day in the rain;
try to fight, try to scream, try to throw you
away.
Hold on to me.
You should want me around.
I'm too busy for this,
it's too false;
it's too proud.
I'll hold on to you,
but I'm pushing away:
Why can't you say
what I need you to say?
Please, erase my pain...
Be the one I need.
And you'll need me, too.
I'm wanting much more
than I usually do;
something that's lost,
something not found in you.
This, my mistake:
Like your heart will not break?
There is nothing to have,
but I still aim to take
it all away,
and nothings all right.
I am cold, I am ugly, I am cruel.
On the outside, the inside,in you.
I hate what I love, I burn what I know.
I'm a stranger to myself, always needing someone else...
Always pushing them away.
Never meaning the words I say.
And saying what I mean?
Unthinkable. Obscene.
I'm dead, I'm dying, I'm gone.
I'm over it, I'm so wrong.
Fight this fire with me...
Be part of my fix.
I hate how I am so in love with this.
I'm spiteful, I'm greedy, I'm rash.
Live life to the fullest, take the last laugh.
I do what I do:I'm just me.
Afraid to be what
I need to be,
Trying to be what
you'd pay to see.
Find me dead down here,
come get me out real soon...
I'm hopeless, I'm helpless,
forgotten.
An empty hourglass in a windowless room.
Waiting for no one;
I showed up too soon...
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